My Pill Journey - Trump Goes Full Alex Jones On Bill Clinton

My Pill Journey




(dramatic music)
- [Voiceover] I had my first panic attack
when I was 17 years old.
My body went into andquot;Fight or Flightandquot; mode.
Jokes on me, 'cause I was actually on
an airplane flight when it happened.
Was it claustrophobia?
Was it bad wiring?
Was it subconscious trauma?
I had so many questions,
but one stood above them all.
During that flight,
my mom gave me my first
10 milligram Valium.
It made me feel like I was flying.
Thus began my journey
to try to fix the feelings
I didn't understand.
Some people struggle
with their mental health.
And out of us, only one in five
take medication to help balance out
the chemicals in our brains.
When you're not feeling physically well,
you go to a doctor,
so if your brain isn't feeling well,
you go to a doctor, right?
Wrong.
Only roughly one-third of people
with a mental illness seek
any form of treatment.
But I desperately wanted
to figure this out,
because I sure as hell
didn't like the way I felt
and I didn't care who knew it.
Well, maybe I cared a little.
I was afraid of telling my friends
that sometimes I felt like I was dying.
Physically and emotionally.
Physically, I was treating my body.
I was on 10, then 20
milligrams of Lexapro,
an SSRI,
and .5 milligrams of Xanax
a magical little pill
to treat anxiety and depression.
I started going to therapy.
I had good days and bad days
and really bad days.
My anxiety attacks became persistent,
and so, I was prescribed a higher dosage
of that magical pill Xanax.
Yet, I was still feeling depressed.
We tried something different.
I was switched off Lexapro and Xanax
and on to Mirtazapine and Ativan.
I took Mirtazapine at night,
and if I didn't go to
bed within 20 minutes
of taking it, I would
everying in my sight.
I learned good medication
can have bad side effects.
When I gained a bunch of weight,
my therapist weaned me off of Mirtazapine
and onto another fun little
pill called Lamictal.
Lamictal is a series of anti-seizure pills
also used to treat the mood swings
of Bipolar Disorder.
Bipolar Disorder.
Getting a definitive diagnosis meant that
there had to be a cure, right?
Hope.
What a misleading drug in itself.
When my moods fluxuated out of control,
I'd take my safety medication, Ativan.
And another, and another,
and what are these, sugar pills?
I thought getting a diagnosis
was going to come with
a fix, but I didn't feel fixed.
I tried to fix everything externally
to fix an internal problem.
I switched jobs, therapists, colleges,
took more Ativan.
My new psychiatrist added
Wellbutrin to my cocktail
and Jesus, this was getting expensive.
What is the price of happiness?
My insurance wouldn't
cover the cost of Lamictal
so I switched to Trazodone,
and Wellbutrin wasn't
giving me energy and focus
the way the doctor said
it was supposed to,
so he weaned me off the Wellbutrin.
Adult ADHD,
which apparently is a thing,
was added as a diagnosis
and I was given different
types of ADHD medications
to my assembly line to try.
Therapy seemed to be working.
I read articles about celebrities
who were talking openly
about their anxiety and depression.
I had good days and bad days
and less really bad days.
I was buying self-help books
and researching breathing techniques.
I was eating healthy, losing
weight, sleeping well,
and faking it when I had to
and then,
life happened.
Smacked me in the face
and right off my tracks
because a guy I loved broke up with me.
The threat of unpredictability
is the scariest part
when something depressing happens
to someone with depression.
I developed an addiction to my safety net,
my Ativan medication,
and I had to take another
pill called Suboxone,
along with an intensive
outpatient rehab program
to get over it.
But I didn't give up.
I couldn't.
There are no rights and wrongs
when it comes to feelings and moods.
They just exist,
we just feel.
It's the choices we make on
how to constructively deal
with those feelings that define us.
Once I wasn't afraid to talk about it,
I started meeting people
who felt the same way I did,
I started seeing new doctors,
psychiatrists, psychologists, therapists
who were covered by my insurance
and I started Cognitive
Behavioral Therapy.
In seven years' time,
seven psychiatrists,
four psychologists,
countless therapists,
two misdiagnoses,
over 20 medications.
I was finally figuring
my mental illness out.
Today, I take three pills.
What they are doesn't matter
becuase I've learned that
that very well could change someday.
Finding the medication
that works is a journey,
and everyone's journey
is gonna be different.
Our chemicals are different.
We are different.
I cannot hold myself accountable
for what happens with my
depression and anxiety.
That I don't have control over.
But I can hold myself accountable
for the strength of trying.

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Trump Goes Full Alex Jones On Bill Clinton




>>DONALD TRUMP HAS DECIDED THAT
THIS WEEK IS GOING TO BE A
NOSTALGIC TRIP BACK TO THE
1990S, SPECIFICALLY SOME OF THE
CONSPIRACY THEORIES THAT DOGGED
PRESIDENT CLINTON DURING HIS
ADMINISTRATION. FIRST, DONALD
TRUMP HAS BROUGHT UP THE THEORY
THAT VINCE FOSTER, FORMER WHITE
HOUSE COUNSEL WHO COMMITTED
SUICIDE, HAD ACTUALLY BEEN
EITHER KILLED BY BILL OR BEEN
KILLED AND BILL COVERED IT UP.
BASICALLY SOMEBODY WAS HIDING
SOMETHING ABOUT VINCE FOSTER
DESPITE THE FACT THAT THERE WERE
THREE INVESTIGATIONS, ALL OF
WHICH CONCLUDED HE COMMITTED
SUICIDE TRAGICALLY. TRUMP --
>>AT LEAST AS SERIOUS AS DONALD
TRUMP HIMSELF, I THINK. THIS IS
HIS DIRECT QUOTE --
>>TALKING ABOUT BILL CLINTON.
OR VINCE FOSTER, I APOLOGIZE.
>>HE IS SAYING HE IS NOT
BRINGING IT UP AS HE DISCUSSES
IT --
>>THIS IS THE OLDEST TRUMP
TRICK IN THE BOOK. I'M NOT
SAYING ANYTHING, I'M JUST
SAYING. I WILL SAY THAT
IRONICALLY, TONGUE-IN-CHEEK. HE
IS LITERALLY SAYING I'M NOT
TALKING ABOUT VINCE FOSTER'S
MURDER, I HAVEN'T SAID A WORD
ABOUT IT, I THINK IT MIGHT BE
UNFAIR TO TALK ABOUT HOW SOME
PEOPLE BELIEVE HE WAS ABSOLUTELY
MURDERED.
>>IT'S THE NEW VERSION OF I WON'T
CALL MEGYN KELLY A BIMBO BECAUSE
THAT WOULD NOT BE PC, BUT IF I
WANTED TO I TOTALLY COULD.
YOU CALLED HER A BIMBO.
>>MURDER WAS THE
CASE THEY GAVE ME.
THAT SONG MIGHT HAVE BEEN ABOUT
VINCE FOSTER BUT I HAVEN'T
SAID ANYTHING.
VINCE FOSTER, WHO IS HE?
>>HE IS JUST WRITING. FIRST OF
ALL THAT IS THE VINCE FOSTER
SITUATION, IF YOU LOOK INTO THE
DETAILS, AND I HAD TO REMIND
MYSELF OF WHAT HAD GONE ON
BECAUSE WE'RE TALKING ABOUT
DECADES AGO, THE GUY GETS TO
WASHINGTON, DC AND APPARENTLY IS
SO SICKENED BY HOW MUCH PEOPLE
BASICALLY JUST TEAR EACH OTHER
APART AND DON'T TRY TO ACCOMPLISH
ANYTHING THAT HE FELL INTO A
DEEP DEPRESSION, WHICH HE TRIED
TO TREAT BRIEFLY, AND THEN
COMMITTED SUICIDE. IT IS A
TRAGEDY NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED,
BUT PROBABLY WHAT HAPPENED IS
NOT THAT BILL CLINTON MURDERED
HIM FOR REASONS THAT NOBODY HAS
EVER MADE CLEAR TO ME, BUT THEY
CONTINUE TO BELIEVE IS THE CASE.
AND THIS IS NOT RUSH LIMBAUGH OR
GLENN BECK, WHO BY THE WAY
MOCKED TRUMP FOR BRINGING THIS
UP, THIS IS THE CANDIDATE FOR
THE REPUBLICAN PARTY FOR THE
PRESIDENCY SAYING THAT BILL
CLINTON, PROBABLY A MURDERER.
I'M NOT SAYING ANYTHING,
I'M JUST SAYING.
>>THE LEVEL OF INSANITY IS
UNPRECEDENTED. WAY BACK IN THE
BEGINNING OF MY CAREER WHEN I
WAS IN WASHINGTON OVER 20 YEARS
AGO, I USED TO GO ON THIS CABLE
NEWS OUTLET, WHICH BY THE WAY
WAS PRE-FOX NEWS AND WAS RUN BY,
OF ALL PEOPLE, ROGER AILES, WHO
NOW RUNS FOX NEWS. EVERY ONCE IN
A WHILE THEY WOULD HAVE ADS FOR
VINCE FOSTER'S MURDER, AND AT
THE TIME I WAS A YOUNG
REPUBLICAN AND I THOUGHT, I
DON'T THINK I SHOULD COME ON THE
STATION ANYMORE. THIS IS THE
ONLY BREAK I'VE EVER GOTTEN IN
MEDIA AND I PROBABLY SHOULD NOT
BE ON HERE BECAUSE THESE GUYS
ARE NUTS. ONLY THE MOST FRINGE
OF THE FRINGE LUNATICS THOUGHT
THAT THE CLINTONS WORKED WITH
THE BILDERBERGS AND THE LIZARD
PEOPLE TO KILL VINCE FOSTER.
THIS WAS PREVIOUSLY UNIMAGINABLE
TO BE BROUGHT UP IN A
PRESIDENTIAL RACE. IF A
SURROGATE OF A SURROGATE HAD
BROUGHT IT UP IN THE LAST
ELECTION CYCLE HE WOULD'VE BEEN
FIRED IMMEDIATELY, BUT THERE ARE
NO BOUNDS WITH TRUMP. PART OF
IT IS THAT BY RIPPING UP THE
PLAYBOOK IT HAS SERVED HIM WELL.
WAIT, WHY DO WE HAVE BOUNDS?
BECAUSE THE PRESS WILL NOT LET
ME? I'LL GET A CERTAIN
PERCENTAGE OF NOT JUST
REPUBLICANS BUT INDEPENDENTS WHO
ARE GULLIBLE AND EASILY
MANIPULATED, AND TRUMP WOULD
KNOW A THING OR TWO ABOUT
MANIPULATING PEOPLE, THAT IS HIS
WHOLE CAREER, AND I WILL PUT
DOUBT IN THEIR MIND. IT IS LIKE
WHAT DEFENSE ATTORNEYS DO. BILL
CLINTON? PROBABLY DIDN'T MURDER
VINCE FOSTER, BUT WHAT IF HE
DID?
>>AND WE HAVE TO
RECOGNIZE THAT THANKS TO HOW
CRAZY THIS ELECTION HAS BEEN,
THIS IS AT MOST THE THIRD
CRAZIEST CONSPIRACY THEORY. IT
IS SLIGHTLY MORE LIKELY THAN
THAT TED CRUZ'S FATHER KILLED
JFK OR THAT THE PYRAMIDS WERE
BUILT TO STORE GRAIN, THESE ARE
THEORIES BROUGHT FORWARD BY
DONALD TRUMP AND BEN CARSON, THE
ONLY TWO PEOPLE TO LEAD
THE
REPUBLICAN PRIMARY. DONALD TRUMP
RELEASED AN INSTAGRAM AD, IN
THIS AD HE REFERENCES, HE PLAYS
AUDIO, FROM KATHLEEN WILLEY AND
JUANITA BROADDRICK, TWO
OF THE WOMEN WHO HAVE ACCUSED
BILL CLINTON OF VARIOUS
SEXUAL ASSAULT CHARGES AND
THINGS OF THAT SORT.
>>NO WOMAN SHOULD BE SUBJECTED
TO IT. IT WAS AN ASSAULT.
>>HE STARTS TO LIE ON THE TOP
OF THE BED, I TRIED TO PULL
AWAY FROM HIM.
>>[LAUGHTER]
>>GOD DAMMIT.
>>THAT IS AN INSANE AD.
WHO KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED,
AND IT DOESN'T SOUND GOOD,
AND GENERALLY YOU WANT TO
BELIEVE WHEN A PERSON SAYS
THEY HAVE BEEN SEXUALLY
ASSAULTED.
BUT THE BLACK AND WHITE FADE,
THE WEIRD PICTURE OF HIM
WITH THE CIGAR, WITH THE WEIRD
LAUGHING, AND HE GLADLY
PUTS HIS NAME ON IT.
>>HERE IS THE DEVASTATING
CONCLUSION I HAVE, IT IS GOING
TO WORK. LET ME IT'S PLAIN WHY.
FIRST, LET ME BE SUPER CLEAR, IT
SHOULDN'T WORK, IT IS TERRIBLE,
HIDEOUS, AND ONE OF THOSE AUDIOS
THAT YOU HEARD FROM ONE OF THE
WOMEN WAS FROM SEAN HANNITY'S
PROGRAM, TAKE THAT WITH ANY KIND
OF GRAIN OF SALT YOU LIKE. AND
THESE REPUBLICANS HAVE BEEN
USING THESE WOMEN TO ATTACK THE
CLINTONS FOR AT LEAST 20 YEARS,
BUT LONGER. ONE OF THE GUYS WHO
USED TO DO THAT IS DAVID BROCK,
WHO NOW IRONICALLY RUNS HILLARY
CLINTON'S ATTACK TEAM, AND RUNS
ONE OF HER SUPER PACS, HE IS ONE
OF THE GUYS WHO USED TO BE THE
HATCHET MAN AGAINST THE
CLINTONS, SO HE KNOWS HOW THIS
GAME IS PLAYED. THE REPUBLICANS
HAVE BEEN PLAYING THIS GAME FOR
A LONG TIME. WHY AM I AFRAID
THAT IT IS GOING TO WORK? HERE
ARE THE THREE REASONS HE IS
DOING IT. OBVIOUSLY TO DAMAGE
HILLARY CLINTON, SHE HAS
UNFAVORABLES, HE WANTS TO DRIVE
THEM UP TO MATCH HIS OWN,
BECAUSE HE IS THE ONLY CANDIDATE
EVER TO RUN FOR PRESIDENT WITH
HIGHER UNFAVORABLES THAN HILLARY
CLINTON. SHE IS NUMBER TWO IN
HISTORY, AS LONG AS THEY HAVE
BEEN DOING POLLS. THAT PART IS
OBVIOUS. THE OTHER PART THAT
MIGHT NOT BE AS OBVIOUS, ONE IS
TO ELIMINATE BILL CLINTON. HE
DOES NOT WANT BILL CLINTON ON
THE CAMPAIGN TRAIL, BECAUSE BILL
CLINTON IS GREAT ON THE CAMPAIGN
TRAIL AND BILL CLINTON HAD AN
ECONOMIC RECORD THAT HE COULD
POINT TO AND SAY, HERE IS 22
MILLION JOBS CREATED, HERE IS
HOW I ELIMINATED THE DEFICIT, I
HANDED OFF A SURPLUS. HE HAS GOT
A GREAT CASE TO MAKE, THIS IS A
PREEMPTIVE ATTACK TO TRY TO
ELIMINATE HIM AND TO GET THE
CLINTONS TO SAY WE DON'T WANT
BILL ON THE CAMPAIGN TRAIL. DO
NOT MAKE THAT MISTAKE, DO NOT
PLAY DEFENSE AGAINST THIS GUY.
YOU HAVE TO PLAY OFFENSE AGAINST
DONALD TRUMP, YOU HAVE TO
ATTACK HIM.
THE CLINTONS SHOULD HAVE AN
AD TWICE AS DEVASTATING
AGAINST DONALD TRUMP.
YOU DON'T WANT TO
GET INTO THE MUD?
THE OTHER 16 REPUBLICANS DIDN'T
WANT TO GET INTO THE MUD
AND WHERE ARE THEY NOW?
>>SHE IS SAYING
SHE WILL GO HANDS-OFF.
THAT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE HER
STYLE.
>>SHE SAYS THEY WILL DECLINE TO
RESPOND TO THE ATTACKS. TERRIBLE
IDEA. GO ON THE OFFENSIVE. I'M
NOT SAYING SHE HAS TO GET INTO
THE NITTY-GRITTY OF THE DETAILS
AND PLAY DEFENSE, YOU SHOULD
JUST SMEAR HIM FOR WHAT HE
ACTUALLY IS. NOT SMEAR HIM, SAY
THE GUY IS A CONSPIRACY THEORIST
AND THIS IS A BORDERLINE
PSYCHOTIC PERSON WHO WE SHOULD
CONSIDER LOCKING UP IN A
STATE MENTAL HEALTH INSTITUTION.
>>HE IS A CRAZY PERSON. HE IS A
CONSPIRACY THEORIST BECAUSE HE
IS PEDDLING CONSPIRACY THEORIES,
THERE IS ALSO A TON OF EVIDENCE
GOING BACK SOMETHING LIKE FOUR
DECADES THAT HE HAS HAD BUSINESS
TIES WITH THE MAFIA. TALK ABOUT
THAT. HOW ABOUT THIS, HE HAS
BEEN ACCUSED BY MULTIPLE WOMEN
OF RAPING THEM. SO IT SEEMS
BALLSY TO ATTACK CLINTON AS A
RAPIST WHEN HE IS NOT IN THE
RACE, SO WHY DON'T THEY ATTACK
TRUMP?
>>HE IS NEUTRALIZING THAT
ATTACK AGAINST HIMSELF.
YOU WANT TO PLAY THAT CARD?
I WILL KEEP SAYING YOUR HUSBAND
RAPED SOMEBODY.
>>SO AT LEAST NEUTRALIZE IT,
EVERYBODY INVOLVED IN THE
RACE IS IN SOME WAY A RAPIST.
>>BUT THAT IS DONALD TRUMP
WINNING, HE GOT TO CALL IT EVEN,
AND AIN'T EVEN. POINT NUMBER
FOUR IS THE MOST HIDDEN, BUT
PROBABLY THE MOST DAMAGING. THE
REASON THE LAUGH IS IN THERE IS
TO LOWER HER NUMBERS AMONG
WOMEN. TO SAY, HE DID ALL THIS
STUFF, BILL CLINTON, TO WOMEN
WHILE HILLARY CLINTON LOOKED THE
OTHER WAY OR LAUGHED ABOUT IT.
THIS IS THE STRATEGY REPUBLICANS
USED AGAINST WENDY DAVIS IN
TEXAS, NOT EXACTLY, BECAUSE THERE
WERE NO CHARGES AGAINST HER
HUSBAND, BUT SHE POLLED WELL
WITH WOMEN AND THEY RIPPED HER
DOWN WITH WOMEN AND SAID SHE
WENT TO GET A FANCY EDUCATION
AND LEFT HER KIDS BEHIND, ETC.
THEY WILL GO AFTER HILLARY
CLINTON'S STRENGTH, WHICH IS
WOMEN. SHE GETS KILLED AMONG
MEN, IF SHE LOSES ANY STRENGTH
AMONG WOMEN SHE IS IN TROUBLE.
SO AS HIDEOUS AS THIS AD IS, AND
THESE ATTACKS AGAINST THE
CLINTONS, POLITICALLY THEY ARE
VERY SAVVY AND IF THE CLINTON
TEAM DOES NOT MOUNT UP RIGHT NOW
AND GET TO ATTACKING, HE IS
GOING TO ESTABLISH THIS, THESE
TALKING POINTS, AND THIS IDEA,
IN THE HEADS OF THE AMERICAN
PEOPLE BEFORE THEY KNOW WHAT HIT
THEM. BY THE WAY, DON'T MAKE ANY
EXCUSES, BERNIE SANDERS IS STILL
IN THE RACE -- HILLARY HAS SAID
1000 TIMES ON TV, I'M ALREADY
DONE WITH HIM, I'M MOVING ON.
OKAY, IF YOU BELIEVE THAT, MOVE
ON. FORGET THE BERNIE
SANDERS/HILLARY CLINTON RACE
JUST FOR A SECOND ON THIS ISSUE,
IT IS NOT OVER BUT THAT'S A
SEPARATE CONVERSATION. IF YOU
REALLY THINK YOU ARE THE NOMINEE
AND YOU THINK YOU ARE GOING
AGAINST TRUMP, YOU HAVE TO
COUNTERATTACK IMMEDIATELY.

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